One of my most desired intentions manifested yesterday!
No doubt, when I was in the midst of publishing "Then True Love Comes," which was just last year in 2015, I was in a soul-searching period of my life. In the midst of emptiness, I decided to take one step, to do something I always dreamt to do, which was to my publish my writings, to release my hidden talents.
At the same time, I was going through a bout of low self-esteem, disappointed in some of my failed businesses. I couldn't see if there was any future or any money to be made continuing doing the kind of work that I love and seeing my creations fly beyond borders.
Having always longed for a divine love since childhood -- stepping in and out of churches, temples, books, movies -- I stepped up the intensity of my absorption of spiritual teachings, listening to Abraham Hicks, Bashar, and more, night and day. Found someone called Neville Goddard and started reading and listening to his methods day and night. Then recently found more dead teachers, like Joseph Murphy, Thomas Troward, Genevieve Behrend, Florence Scovel Shinn and Claude Bristol and more... truthfully, which I haven't finished reading yet.
Every day, something happened with me to shift my thinking. I started questioning the limitations me & the world had conspired to put upon my life. Started to consider if I could dream again the dreams I used to dream, which I had abandoned a long time ago. If it's true I could have anything I want, what do I want? Started focusing on my desires, creating methods, writing them out, imagining, thinking, believing, acting, faking, redirecting, feeling....and now, I am finally stepping into the me I am meant to be.
This is what "Then True Love Comes," my book of poetry was supposed to tell the world. I guess, it was my prophecy before I knew I could prophesy my own prophecy :)
Chinese New Year is essentially the celebration of spring, the
birth of another prosperous year. That is why, often, you will see greetings,
Chinese New Year art & decorations dotted with the bursting of little pink
blossoms and red lanterns.
As an ethnic Chinese growing up in a multi-cultural society, and
schooled within a non-Chinese language environment, I only appreciated the
Chinese culture much later on during my working life as a TV producer. And when
I was introduced to Feng Shui about 10 years ago & its concept of Qi
(energy), I realized that the spiritual masters of different racial & religious
backgrounds often taught universal teachings which was conceptually similar to
the Chinese concept and practices of Qi.
I was amazed that eons ago, the Chinese had understood about the
power & manifestations of the soul, relating it to our internal Qi as well
as the outward Qi of the physical earth. What is the energy you are vibrating?
Is it the energy of self pity, or the energy of pride? The energy of poverty or
the energy of wealth?
During Chinese New Year, you will hear wishes of prosperity,
good luck and abundance. Some people think that the Chinese are all about greed
and materialism because most are said to spend their lives in pursuit of money.
But after realizing the concept of Qi, I know now that the ancient Chinese was
on to something before the rest of the world began to understand.
They immersed their rituals and practises to reflect a fortunate
life, one of abundance and long life, which was not something to be embarrassed
about to want, but rather seen as a norm, a should-have and a desire that is
innate in every person.
Therefore, the practises of feng shui, of wearing red and
decorating our homes red to symbolize vigorous energy and prosperity; the
placing of blooming flowers and peaches, and the reverence to the magnificent
peonies, are among the encouraged practices, as merely having, wearing and
displaying these symbols is said to manifest the power of good Qi, which draws
all good things to us.
So, as I make myself walk the talk of manifesting and creating a
life of my desires, I now readily open to these practices, which I had once
rejected as old and unfashionable. After all, the truth had been out there all
along, but I am just beginning to discover it.
I woke up this morning, suddenly feeling an overwhelming urge for love.
Tears started to roll as I released the tension I felt the entire last 2 weeks, which I did not even realized I held.
I had felt as though it was so hard to make a decent living. It is so hard to keep doing proposals and to be questioned if I'm worth investing any money in.
I don't want to keep having to justify ROI's (return on investments) on things that have never be done and which is just my inspiration for now, from ideas shared by others, that is just my gut feel, that requires my belief and a little magic from nowhere.
It is so hard to keep wanting the approval from others because I have to pay my bills and enjoy my life.
Tired, I just let go the tension from me, imagining the tension blowing away, leaving my body. I clicked on an Abraham Hicks video to let the message of allowing wealth into my subconscious as I lay in the comfort of my bed. And I asked God to help me.
I looked at my phone and I noticed a message from a friend sent earlier this morning. I had heard from him several days ago. But a message like this, out of the blue, in the early morning was surprising.
Good morning. Blessings are always here. Good luck always comes.
in better English, may sound like: May blessings always be around, and may good fortune always come.
Tears rolled down even more. It's as though God had asked him to send it to me.
Then, suddenly I thought back to the bigger picture. Why is it that when we cry, it is water that rolls out from our bodies. What a thought, huh...
Tears of sadness, tears of joy...but still, it is water.
The outpouring tears must be carrying something with them our from my body...tensed energies, frustrations, disappointments, fear...detoxifying me.
Then I thought about water....I have an issue because it is not my habit to drink lots of water, and I am told I have water retention, so I am doing my best to remind myself to drink up!
Water....it is abundant throughout our earth. Now, now, I am not the type to go analyzing the state of our earth scientifically and neither am I such a spiritual master to tell you the links between the scientific and the spiritual world.
But I believe this world, this universe, this earth is spiritual creation that is scientifically sound. God -- whoever the universal forces that has created us and this earth, is the master creator.
According to universetoday.com, water makes up 71% of the earth's surface. Roughly 96.5% of all water on earth is contained in the oceans as salt water, and 3.5 % is freshwater lakes and frozen water locked up in glaciers and the polar ice caps.
Then I thought, oh my God. This is already abundance. If I have this abundance readily without my effort, I can have many other types of abundance just by acknowledging it is already there. My tears has led me to understand what is abundance.
God has given us what we need to survive. We have an abundance of water for our bodies, when we are born on this earth. And He was so clever to freeze some of the water as storage so we will never run out...and if we ever do, rain will come. (But I haven't yet figured out why we let ourselves suffer from floods.)
I always believe the Chinese culture knows the secrets of this universe very clearly. From the beginning, we talked about 气（qi）-- energy: good energy, bad energy, 风水feng shui and all that, which is linked to everything that happens to us. Particularly in 风水feng shui, water is a symbol of wealth -水 (shui) . When we talk, we sometimes refer to money as 水 (shui). And there is something about the effect of the moon creating high tides and low tides that affects us, naturally without us realizing.
The pieces in my mind are coming together. I am being knocked into my senses.
