My Tears, The Proof of My Abundance

I woke up this morning, suddenly feeling an overwhelming urge for love. 

Tears started to roll as I released the tension I felt the entire last 2 weeks, which I did not even realized I held.

I had felt as though it was so hard to make a decent living. It is so hard to keep doing proposals and to be questioned if I'm worth investing any money in. 

I don't want to keep having to justify ROI's (return on investments) on things that have never be done and which is just my inspiration for now, from ideas shared by others, that is just my gut feel, that requires my belief and a little magic from nowhere.

It is so hard to keep wanting the approval from others because I have to pay my bills and enjoy my life. 

Tired, I just let go the tension from me, imagining the tension blowing away, leaving my body. I clicked on an Abraham Hicks video to let the message of allowing wealth into my subconscious as I lay in the comfort of my bed. And I asked God to help me. 

I looked at my phone and I noticed a message from a friend sent earlier this morning. I had heard from him several days ago. But a message like this, out of the blue, in the early morning was surprising.

Good morning. Blessings are always here. Good luck always comes.
in better English, may sound like: May blessings always be around, and may good fortune always come.

Tears rolled down even more. It's as though God had asked him to send it to me. 

Then, suddenly I thought back to the bigger picture. Why is it that when we cry, it is water that rolls out from our bodies. What a thought, huh...

Tears of sadness, tears of joy...but still, it is water. 

The outpouring tears must be carrying something with them our from my body...tensed energies, frustrations, disappointments, fear...detoxifying me. 

Then I thought about water....I have an issue because it is not my habit to drink lots of water, and I am told I have water retention, so I am doing my best to remind myself to drink up!

Water....it is abundant throughout our earth. Now, now, I am not the type to go analyzing the state of our earth scientifically and neither am I such a spiritual master to tell you the links between the scientific and the spiritual world.

But I believe this world, this universe, this earth is spiritual creation that is scientifically sound. God -- whoever the universal forces that has created us and this earth, is the master creator.

According to universetoday.com, water makes up 71% of the earth's surface. Roughly 96.5% of all water on earth is contained in the oceans as salt water, and 3.5 % is freshwater lakes and frozen water locked up in glaciers and the polar ice caps. 

Then I thought, oh my God. This is already abundance. If I have this abundance readily without my effort, I can have many other types of abundance just by acknowledging it is already there. My tears has led me to understand what is abundance. 

God has given us what we need to survive. We have an abundance of water for our bodies, when we are born on this earth. And He was so clever to freeze some of the water as storage so we will never run out...and if we ever do, rain will come. (But I haven't yet figured out why we let ourselves suffer from floods.)

I always believe the Chinese culture knows the secrets of this universe very clearly. From the beginning, we talked about 气（qi）-- energy: good energy, bad energy,  风水feng shui and all that, which is linked to everything that happens to us. Particularly in 风水feng shui,  water is a symbol of wealth -水 (shui) . When we talk, we sometimes refer to money as 水 (shui). And there is something about the effect of the moon creating high tides and low tides that affects us, naturally without us realizing. 

The pieces in my mind are coming together. I am being knocked into my senses.